I did tell myself before I will never be sad; but somehow, I realise it is not a matter of choice.
Feeling – you cannot control it totally.
No matter how I can make myself laugh loudly or cheekily, it cannot ease the pain underneath.
I cannot buy things with sincerity; I know I have been wasting my life.
If it is such a simple request, why has it been refused? But it is not the first time already.
Humans are weird.