I watch the star fall as I sit by and do nothing. I always think it will shine and been waiting all these while, yet I realise all these trying are dimming it more and more.
I do not have the strength anymore to lift it up. I am exhausted.
Maybe it is another moody star since beginning and my visible was playing a fool on me.
I cannot help feeling lousier each day. I despise all my decision and judgement. I hate my own life.
I really wish I can do everything on this earth but it is never my level of capability to accomplish even simple tasks.
For now I need more support than I can give.
It seems like a dead end.