It was just to simulate the feeling which had been flashing in my mind ever since I was stunned; I was not alone but I was probably the only unlucky one.
Apart from losing so much time which I could probably push the “quit smoking” site to a later phase and the mood to enjoy myself the entire week, I did learn some stuff.
I was being released somehow, at least from the responsibility which never meant to be mine in the first place. Things could be really ridiculous in the first place.
We could not buy back time.