Feeling the helplessness, but it’s different from yours.
You can easily make little effort just to overcome the problem which you claimed “helpless”, but I cannot because I’m helpless towards helping.
All the bad future scenarios come to my mind. I have tried so hard to control but it turns out I’m a total failure.
I used to not be able to doze off at nights and I wanted so badly to sleep early; for the past couple of weeks and till today, I’m totally drained each night, yet I do not dare to close my eyes.
The phone might sound any time. I wonder if I could hear your scream from far away if you happen to.