Dear Dreams – Page 96

Super Sick

Since the beginning of the week, my throat started to irritate me. Somehow, my eyes were very tired and I could not stop myself from nodding in the afternoon no matter how much sleep I took.

The weather was intemperate and the office was full of sick workers. I could no longer withhold the virus and flu started to emphasise my body by Wednesday. The cough managed to keep me awake for quite some time on my bed.

A visit to the Outram Polyclinic was a new experience during this Swine Flu period, where screening of temperature was done outside the entrance. All the visitors with symptoms such as fever, cough and flu are allocated to a different queue.

I was among the outcast group to be attended within a room. The pharmacy took over the original reception counters and even took my identification card, which was probably used to call up to check whether had I gone overseas within the period.

It was a long wait and Doctor Tan Kai Hui Colin attended to me. I was surprised over his friendliness, which was rare among the polyclinic doctors. He assured me of my condition was normal and gave me MC (medication certificate) to excuse me from work for two days. It was the first time I was given two days of MC in the polyclinic without having to debate with the doctor.

I went home to swallow the disgusting cough syrup, flu pill and sucking the lozenge. Soon, the power of the syrup and pill put me to sleep.

I could feel myself floating at night. My body was warm and I knew fever had joined in the fun. The first thing that came to my mind was I did not have any medicine for fever since my temperature was originally 36.2 degree in the morning. My mum gave me panadols to resist the fever before I went to bed.

My temperature fell between 37.4 and 37.9 degree throughout. I could feel my entire body torching and aching. I predicted the weekend would be wasted.

Efficiency and Inspiration

If only taking a short nap is permitted during working hours, work efficiency would be much higher.

I prefer to work without fixed hours because inspiration does not like to be grounded

Pray Hard

There are too many things that I cannot stop and no doubt have to let go and pray hard for nothing will happen. I bite my teeth and sigh soundlessly in my anxiety, but nothing seems to help.

There is very slim chance that things will go really bad, but we cannot eliminate its existence. Sometimes we cannot afford to take any risk at all, because one is enough to change our entire lives; sometimes, nobody will come to sense until something happens.

Will it be too late?

Copycat

It is funny how some people can laugh over things that you do, and a few week later, start to imitate you.

Is it some immatureness playing trick on the person for speaking without the words going through the brain earlier on?

Priority

How often do you wish for something badly and yet you prioritise other things over it?

You think you can get it somehow because it is within your comfort zone; you start to let your negligence overruns.

You do not feel the degenerating and you think it should be always there for you.

Shit

You don’t eat at the place you shit.

Maybe you shit on the living room?

The Sweat at Lower Back

It is not fun to stand inside the MRT daily, having a small portion of my body sweating – the lower back.

I cannot help not to recall the usual remarks from people who hear about my injury, just a two words in dialect – “Chao Keng” – because it relates to the army. It simply spells the distrust in every human being nowadays.

Nevertheless, the people who can think of something are people who have the urge or have already done it.

Cursed Day

It had been quite a nasty day with all the bad incidents.

I was already on fire fighting and yet new bomb simply busted me in the early morning, two hours after midnight.

A little negligence cost me the entire afternoon.

My effort was worthless.

Early Morning's Chores

One of the worst things that could happen in the early morning was when you were carrying two big bags like the army days, your old neighbour saw you and wanted to pass you some fruits.

When she opened the door, her dog went out and you knew her legs could not really catch up with the dog. You hurried to catch up with the dog in a marching style to grab her and return to the neighbour.

Since that was quite an old dog and had some smell, you had to go back to your house to put down the fruits and washed your hands.

It was a simple yet not good morning to start off.

Project Meetup on Saturday

A meeting up with the groupmates at Sembawang burned my Saturday. The Sunday was not spared as well, but at least I was able to do other things at home, such as backing up some of my data into the new external hard disk.

Having to spend two hours to travel to and fro, I could hardly agree that it was a good trip. At least, we pardoned Yuanle from travelling from Bedok Reservoir.

The weekend woke my backache up after sitting for hours on the floor around the small table without backrest. The pain weakened me and put me on the bed every now and then, and I lost all concentration with the irritant.