Dear Dreams – Page 138

Urgent Tasks, Greater Productivity

It was days of working late that I kept nodding in front of the computer. Lack of sleep had deprived me to walk like a zombie at times. Fortunately, I still managed to survive in front of the little kids.

I dread bearing responsibility but it is responsibility that makes me strive harder to fulfil my tasks.

When I have plentiful of time to allocate my own timing, I seem to stare into the air most of the time. I realise occasionally I do keep browsing through all the reports and statuses to keep myself away from uneasiness.

When personal work load stacks up, I begin losing control of everything.

Having lots of important and urgent tasks on hands do burn me out a lot and deepen my sleep debt, however, do increase my productivity.

I need to learn to prioritise and focus on my tasks.

Talking about fairness, it never happens in our society. I must be too soft that people tend to take me for granted.

Slow Emails

I do not like having to rush work at night because I believe I deserve my own rights to own my leisure time. However, it can be a release for me since I will not be able to touch on my personal work, which has been causing stress on me.

But somehow, having to reply lots of sensitive and formal emails is really awkward and unusual.

I really hate the fact that when someone approaches me in the midst of when I’m struggling to catch a breath, and I rather get myself suffocated than to not help, yet it turns out that I should have remained in exile.

I dread and despise being doubted.

The hurt increases when I’m being mistaken after trying so hard to please everyone, especially when I’m so sure that I have given much more effort than anyone else.

It is stupid that things often turn out bad.

Do you realise by now why I’m so slow at times when I’m replying emails? I take too much precaution in every word and detail, such that, the hurt due to negligence can be minimised.

Guilt VS Fun

I feel quite guilty for playing volleyball twice last week. At first, I even decided not to play volleyball anymore and then I knew I should not let it distant my friends and I. However, it should not be the case that I start indulging and spending too much time on volleyball again.

It was fun after all. When more people started to play with more serious attitude, time was better spent.

Insertion of Extra File by Webhost

For the past few months, I was very irritated by the relocation of my personal homepage on load. On Technorati and Google search, the title “Relocate” was displayed instead of my original scripted title. Since I did not make any changes before that, the problem was unpredictable.

I checked on my domain host to confirm that I did not make any changes within that period of time as well. I made adjustments in the setting of my webhost, to include and exclude certain services but none was helpful enough.

Last week, I took a random check in the webhost directory and found an extra file “at_domains_index.html” among the long list of my HTML files in the root directory. The web server had added in this extra file without informing me.

The crucial thing was that the server was loading that file instead of “index.html”, which I believed it was configured by their administrators; meaning that it should not happen in other webhosts.

This unprofessional work by the webhost could actually cause big lost if it had happened to any money-making sites by causing lost of Google Pagerank.

Friends for Life

I do not like the feeling of good friends falling out with each other, do you?

If you share the same sentiment, why not do something to solve the problem?

Blogger Downtime

Blogger has been quite unstable for the past few days. Navigating around the “Dashboard” using Firefox is slower than Internet Explorer at times. It is definitely inconvenient especially if you are running a few blogs. The downtime has also affected the traffic.

The plan to switch over to WordPress has been a dream since years ago. Priority and urge have been battling throughout me.

New Environment

It was a hard day at work since I failed to catch any wink throughout the entire night. I began stoning since the morning. It did not begin well at all. Finding a cubical with lock inside the toilet seemed impossible. I hated changes and the new environment would definitely take me quite a while to get used to.

Towards the afternoon, getting back to old place with familiar faces granted me more comfort. I hated restless days.

The exhaustion sent me to bed soon at home.

Home Alone for Five Nights

My elder brother left Singapore again last Saturday night. It is probably not a very good job even though he gets to go overseas every month to gain new experience; at any place, it is the people which matter the most.

My entire family including my elder brother’s girlfriend will be going to Hong Kong on 24th till 29th April 2008 and therefore this year, I will not be celebrating her birthday on the day itself – 25th.

I will be alone for five consecutive nights, which I have not yet tried before.

There is high chance which I will die of starvation or even stink to death because I’m so lazy that I will not even go downstairs to buy my own meal or cook my own instant noodle, and that my stinky clothes will be left on the bucket for the days. When my family get back, the smelly clothes will be added on.

On the first night, I would be return with my ultra stinky volleyball gear, which will definitely penetrate through the entire house.

I definitely need maids.

As far as the public is concern, everyone knows how easygoing I am and therefore there will never be any problem working for me. I only need massager, cook, dishwasher, clothes washer, sweeper and probably someone to switch off the electricity after I doze off accidentally. Once again, I repeat, I’m very easygoing. No experience is required as anyone can learn on the spot.

To apply for being my free maid, please kindly email me your particulars and pictures.

Third Alone Trip to Marina South Pier

I made my third alone trip to Marina South Pier just now. I actually wanted to go in the early morning but it was unwise to jog without sleep.

I took my lunch really late and even though I set off near sunset, I felt the stiff on my intestine at the start. I managed to press on till my destination but timing was really bad. The place was more crowded than usual, which was not a good timing.

I took a walk at the front of the restaurant at the second storey called “Pier Eleven”. It was the first time the staff handed me their namecard, which I quite liked the clean design. Maybe I should try it in future.

I could not stay as long as previous times since it was already very late. I dragged on my feet on the return path. It was never good to be alone at night for somehow loneliness was at its mightiest. For the first time, I did not have confidence of getting back. Instead of jogging straight to near NTUC, I stopped right besides the Singapore Conference Hall; at least, I did manage to make it back.

It seems quite impossible to have friends jogging there with me anymore.

Debugging a Dream

A day ago, I gave up debugging something for the “Quit Smoking” site. I knew it was getting late and though I was not nodding in any direction, I probably could not run my tiny brain enough to solve the problem. I knew sleeping was the correct decision since I had to quit sleeping near daylight.

It was long since I encountered such problem that it took me effortless near six hours to program the coding for just a simple feature. I woke up to continue with this endless project, keeping my concentration focused. It took me around an hour to debug and eventually felt accomplished.

It seemed that perseverance had rewarded the effort but sadly, not every dream could come true.