My Life Totally Sucks

I give up.

There are too many things I cannot do even with my status. For whom I am, I am just too lousy.

I cannot stop things from going wrong. My capability is limited and my words weigh nothing; I’m just another Tom, Dick or Harry on this Earth.

I cannot stop people from smoking. I cannot stop people from piercing their ears for their ex-boyfriends, especially when there is infection. I soon cannot stop tattooing and clubbing with all the hot horny guys surrounding, alluring and cuddling.

If she does not listen, repeating is just seeking for humiliation.

I often get a tight slap on myself for being nosy.

Since I cannot do anything, I would just sit back and learn to accept reality that my life totally sucks.

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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The Punch

The hurt on my knuckle doesn’t seem to surpass my heart pain. It trembles in red, not as bright as the lighted cigarette, but swollen enough to halt movement. A sportsman with injuries is deem as worthless. Since years ago, nothing ever stimulated self destruction anymore when maturity took over. Now that every bit of calmness has dispersed; in sorrow, in disappointment, I conclude defeat. What’s worst is the joke that nobody knows or believes.

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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I’m not Good Enough

Out of nowhere, it just started raining. It was bright and shining and I even considered out for a jog.

The weather is very unforeseeable. I’m both weary and frightened.

Yes, the Earth continues to spin even without my existence. I want to do many things and help everyone. I want to be the one for the girl I love.

If I were dirt, I would rather be perished; I would not want to stain your happiness.

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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The One?

The smiles of heaven; the cheerfulness of the morning sunshine; the beauty from the heart.
When all the ugly periods are over, the light shows the path to the paradise – take it and we seek for our happiness together.
Whilst we turn back and look at the unpleasant past, we begin to cherish what we have now.
Life is a learning process, we make mistakes and we hurt ourselves, but eventually we have to grow up and make the correct decision.
Am I your best choice?

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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Volleyball Friendly Match

I finally got to play volleyball again, missing the previous week’s session due to my FYP meeting.

I was utterly wrecked even before the game because of the ultimate lack of sleep and my two continuous days of chin-ups before reporting to the office in the morning. I totally sucked at chin-ups already, being only able to struggle to get the count of ten with the laptop inside my bag.

Mingfa came down earlier to meet Weitat and I. After we went to Weitat’s house to get his stuffs, we went to IMM to join up with Kachua. Dinner was the Ah Mei café’s roti prata with their iced milk tea. We walked around for a while before going back to the campus for the game.

We had another team, Sports Right, coming down and thus it was more crowded than usual. We had to take turns to play and I could only get to play four sets in total. I was totally exhausted after my first game. When the ball went very high, my head was spinning. My entire body was weak and both my shoulders were aching. My leg almost cramped. But at least, I was quite satisfied with my overall performance. My team played calmly until the last game. Wilson did extremely well.

I was lucky that Kachua was around and he sent me home.

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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Liar Liar Liar

For every lie that you tell, you will need two or more to cover it. Soon, you will realize you need a hundred more lies just to cover the first lie. If you have a hundred lies to cover, how many possible loopholes will there be?

How well can you sleep with all the lies in your head?

Soon, you will realize you cannot trust anyone anymore, because you know big liars exist in this world.

How pathetic?

Skai Chan @ http://sillydumb.com

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