[Tuesday, 12 September, 2006]
Once again, I dozed off only after five in the morning. Other than the unwelcoming nose, the flu had set my mind to worry about Vivi and my oncoming operation.
Basically, I did nothing after waking up other than clearing some of my mails as usual. After my lunch, I took two pills of panadols and went to sleep again. Usually, it would do me good sealing under a blanket without switching on the air-con or fan, but this time after sweating out, everything was still the same.
The mild cough eventually returned, followed by sore throat and my day was totally wrecked. At least, I got to chat with Vivi for a while over the phone but was worried that she would come over anytime to take care of me when I was unable to escort her home. I was glad when she messaged me in MSN.
I tried not to waste my day and continued with some online research. Then, I realised I was so outdated that the use of META KEYWORDS was kind of redundant already; what would happen to those web design lesson plans then? Will there be a change?
One of the numerous articles I had been to was http://www.searchengineguide.com/ball/006037.html.
Dreams were still far within my reach and I supposed the only consoles were that I was going to ORD soon and I already had my dream girl with me.
World Top Blogs
I have joined the “World Top Blogs” listing. If you are free, just help me click it to vote for me, which will take just seconds. I will not ask for more – just once a day will do. THANK YOU!
I do not mean it seriously anyway. I hope my friends would spend their time more usefully.
Sweet couple's videos
Vivi has been asking me to watch some videos in Youtube. The used-to-be lovely couple have so much many people are envious of.
The problem arouses then, which I would not elaborate on because every guy should feel the pressure too.
Another thing is that she keeps complaining that the girl is so slim but my Vivi is not fat also. Girls are girls.
跪羊圖
One of the songs I like from 慈濟 (Tzu Chi) is 跪羊圖 (Gui Yang Tu).
Website of Tzu Chi: http://www.tzuchi.org.sg/
Not many people would appreciate it but from an angle of arts, it is beautiful. Of course, it is not a Jay Chou’s song and thus you should not repeat the song more than ten times at one go before you get sick of it.
To me, it is a song children should listen to because of the beautiful contents. It is an educational song, teaching virtues which every human being should possess – filial. It would be good if someone who understands the lyrics could explain the meaning to the kids.
Personally, I was involved in the rehearsals of the “父母恩重难报经” (The profound parental love) musical show and heard so much of the solo singings, with the actors’ enthusiastic to bring out the meaning, I felt so touched by the song; it cannot be explained.
You may preview the song below but please buy it if you think it is good. Get back to me if you sincerity want to buy the album, I’ll get my Vivi to do it free of service charge for you.
跪羊圖 by 蕭蔓萱，謝文德
古聖先賢孝為宗 萬善之門孝為基
禮敬尊親如活佛 成就生命大意義
父母恩德重如山 知恩報恩不忘本
做人飲水要思源 才不愧對父母恩
小羊跪哺 閉目吮母液
感念母恩 受乳恭身體
膝落地 姿態如敬禮
小羊兒 天性有道理
人間孝道 及時莫遲疑
一朝羽豐 反哺莫遺棄
父身病 是為子勞成疾
母心憂 是憂兒未成器
多少浮雲遊子夢 奔波前程遠鄉里
父母倚窗扉 苦盼子女的消息
多少風霜的堆積 雙親容顏已漸老
莫到懺悔時 未能報答父母恩
為人子女 飲水要思源
圓滿生命 盡孝無愧意
兒女心 無論在何地
給雙親 一聲感恩您
[I will update this post with the English explanation of the lyrics]
For a better future, hopefully
[Monday, 11 September, 2006]
It has been more than a month since my near-freedom days and I have somehow completely slacked down. Apart from “owing” so many outdated blog entries, I have not even completed a portfolio or resume.
I woke up this day with a light body, feeling so restless and strengthless, whereas my ears seemed to be partially blocked; it was a very bad sign.
As I was expecting for a phone call from Jonshit’s friend for my job at night, I checked my phone and realised the missed call was at 1200h. So, two hours after that, I sent a message to that number and my guess was right. Then, this lady told me the date for the job was actually next Monday.
It could be also considered as a good news since I was quite sick. I was glad that I finally knew the timing and place of that project, which was so damn near to my house. It was going to be a great new experience to be an usher in an event with many rich people. But of course, there were some fears that I might not be able to do a job if I had to speak a lot. No matter what, I had to take it in order to feed my sweet dowager.
As I was chatting with Gilbert in MSN, I searched for job online and eventually found one quite nice paying job of my qualification at . However, it prickled my heart when I reflected how much I could offer them.
Gilbert urged me to touch up on my websites so that I could do a good port folio as to apply for the job, but I knew it could be too late by the time. Nevertheless, once again the flames aroused in my heart and my fighting spirit rose.
Since the main source of my distraction was my dowager, I spoke to her about it and she gladly agreed to show me support. However, in the end was an extremely piercing pain on my chest that she did not even let me know when she was going home from her tutor’s place. Sometimes I even took the initiative to fetch her after her tuition but this time I did not even accompany her on the phone through the dark path home.
Once again I had to blame myself for unable to multi-task on the phone and my work. Another big problem was that I did not have good time management, mainly because of the overloaded tasks and dreams I had on hand.
With my flu and cough, I had a hard time working with the blocked brain. There was not much inspiration and everything was slowed down.
Living on was a torture.
MSN down
For those who fail to sign into MSN Live, you might want to try these but I cannot guarantee if it would work. Do it at your own risk.
1. Open the file – C:WindowsSystem32Driversetchosts
2. Append these 2 lines to the bottom:
65.54.239.80 messenger.hotmail.com
65.54.239.80 dp.msnmessenger.akadns.net
3. Save and close the file
Note: Make sure you do not change the file format, not even to “.txt”.
Anyway, I have come across this article saying “MSN Chat will no longer be offered on or after October 18th” from http://news.softpedia.com/news/Microsoft-Shuts-Down-MSN-Chat-34560.shtml. Seriously I would prefer the older versions of the MSN since MSN Live seems to take up more system resource.
My insanity
[Wednesday, 06 September, 2006]
There were always problems somehow with the cycling trips to her house. It was either the undetected deflated tyres or the unknown jammed gear; each time it made me paddled so much harder.
It was her sister’s birthday, who ordered a chocolate ice-cream cake to fit her taste, and yet her mum insisted her go for tuition to miss out the celebration. Even though her tutor’s house was near her house, I promised to fetch her.
To cycle there was of course an idea to save cost; taking two trips of buses actually cost a lot when it was so frequent. It took me less than twenty minutes to cycle over and the idea of exercising was good for someone like me who did not had much chances to work out.
I was glad at least she was happy to see me. The time I spent on each single trip was actually longer than the time I could get to see her but it definitely worth it.
There were unlimited reasons why I would want to waste so much time; I could not explain. She did not insist me to fetch her or just send her to any place but her love just made me put in all my willingness.
Needless to say, there were so many sweet things she had done, which had caused my insanity.
Route to failure
I begin to feel lousier about myself when I cannot multi-task, especially when I am on phone. There is also this major problem that I am only able to concentrate at late hours.
There are visions but never enough time to execute. No matter how much hours I am able to squeeze out of my sleep, I am failing badly. How many hours are there before daylight?
Following by sickness, I am feeling worst of this period of time before ORD. I feel so weak that I do not seem to be able to accomplish anything.
I cannot afford to fall sick in these two weeks because of the Pre-Admission test and the actual operation itself; if a delay is caused, I would have to foot the bill by myself after this month.
Time is crucial but I have no time management and ability to prioritize things.
Sweet morning
Sometimes, I cannot stop smiling when I get lucky.
She accompanied to chat on the phone until 3am in the morning because I always slept at such hour. We had great conversation and my face was full of lights.
In the end, I finished my stuffs at around 5am instead.
Life’s full of hypocrites
Suddenly I feel so tired of this world. Maybe it is just due to lack of sleep.
There are too many kinds of people. There are jerks or bastards who toy with girls’ feeling and yet they are “nice” to some or just a girl. I cannot feel the motive because I am naive.
A group of gangsters or hooligans can be seemed as united and do we have to start admiring them for this?
Do you take pity or even respect the poor? But do you even want to care about people who are poor just because they dump their money on cigarette companies in order to exchange for bad health for themselves and other non-smokers?
There are things on this earth which we cannot control but at least do avoid; same goes for friends who you never know what he will do next.
Tell me am I wrong.