I always try my best to do as much as I can.
I may not always succeed, but I feel true and have clear self-conscience.
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Skai Chan
I always try my best to do as much as I can.
I may not always succeed, but I feel true and have clear self-conscience.
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There are times when we do nothing wrong and yet we cannot deny the mistake, or otherwise, it will pose greater pain to our teammate who has caused the problem.
I stood there, almost at the shock of my life, to hear what was going on. The fact that one of my mentors was around to penalize us worsened my mood.
Wednesday was a terrible day.
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First time you may be safe, second time you may be safe, but who knows the third time you are not so lucky anymore?
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You have very negative outlook in life, and generally think life sucks; something which is not been very well for you. However, there is something good in you, and also some hope.
You need to find something that makes you feel positive in life; your partner must try to find it for you. Maybe, he can help to influence you in you in your hobby or something you are good in, and your outlook in life will change.
You are not very good in money.
Very strong and private things have happened and you don’t share much about your personal life. You are very quiet and whatever you are portraying may not be your true self.
You have some career-mindedness and you want to prove that you can succeed. You should think more positively in your smaller successes in life. Your partner should come in to help you and then you probably can turn around.
You are careful with words. However, you can also be very rash, such that you say things you don’t mean and even slam phone. You have a bit of temper. You are stubborn, but not very extreme. Stubborn can be good, such that people can’t influence you easily.
There are some uncertainties in you and you are lack of confidence. You are indecisive.
Career – You don’t know what you want to do yet. However, try not to do something that has to do with confidentially such as financial or Human Resource (HR).
Analyzed on 02 November, 2009.
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I have failed to sing a song for you, I have failed to write the ending of the story. There are too many things I have failed to do, which are some of the greatest regrets of my life.
Now that I can only sit back and watch, I never want to find out more after hearing stories about the cruel facts of life; I can no longer withstand any hurt. All I wish is that you can accomplish the three things I want you to do ever since knowing you:
– Stay happy.
– Love yourself.
– Live a meaningful life.
Does a person who always laughs and smiles considered a happy person? How many guys have really loved you before? Is going wild all day long meaningful?
Maybe one day you will realize why guys like to play pool with girls and why guys would pay for the midnight cab fare just to meet up with girls. Maybe, you do not mind at all.
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I could not escape taking the kids to Simei ITE. At first, I was supposed to replace George but his meeting was postponed and thus I was free. Just the night before, I was tasked to go since Bernard was sick, but luckily that was my favourite class. I missed the opportunity to hang out with QB though.
I reached early at 8am. Kevin came over to consult me. He related about his past experience, which could happen to me in near future.
The bus driver, uncle Tan, was very friendly. Criz was late and Alan was even worse, however, uncle Tan agreed to pick him up at Clementi MRT station before turning to AYE. The girls knew I was not in very good mood but they triggered more onto me with all the questions.
We met up with the rest before going up to the hall. None of the booths had anything for degree holders since it was meant for ITE students. The only thing that attracted me was the free notepad from NCS. While some of the girls were being interviewed for the Sentosa crew job, we stood near the booth for Yunnan Haircare, where many girls from probably a beautician related course came over and some were very cute and pretty.
We went to the canteen for their lunch and my brunch. I bought a plate of lemon chicken rice and started filling my stomach with the soup while waiting for the rest. They bought a piece of cake for Criz to celebrate his birthday and he was very cute throughout the celebration.
At around noon, we rushed off to board the bus and had some phototaking fun inside. The driver took us a tour before going back to pick up Nicholas’ retail class. After reaching the campus, I went off. Due to all the delay, my plan to visit the Chinese physician failed. I went home straight away to rest my weak body even though I slept longer than usual the night before.
I woke up at five plus in the afternoon, cleared email and rushed off to the campus. Flu had caught me and I felt weaker than before. I was minutes earlier before my bosses were leaving and the Indian guy was waiting there to lock the office up. I picked up my sports gears and talked to my bosses while going down. The canteen auntie reached and she gave me free sandwiches again, which I shared all with the rest of the volleyball players.
The game started but my legs were giving ways due to the jog the evening before. My cough had worsened and I felt feverish. My knuckle was still giving me problems. It was not so bad until Mingfa left the court after coach Michael Ong arrived; I was too used to his setting pattern to coordinate with others.
I was not only aching and sick, but also pressurized by Michael Ong’s presence. I felt quite irritated due to my poor performance in front of him because all along I wanted to prove him I could do better than what he thought.
Kachua and I left right after ten since he had to send his girlfriend home. We went to Sembawang and dined at a coffee shop. I took a plate of chicken wing rice from “Happy Chicken” and the taste was quite okay. After which, he dropped his girlfriend in front of her flat and sent me to his office where I walked home.
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Last Saturday, I stepped onto the volleyball court again. I had been missing Saturdays’ sessions.
I was totally not in good condition to play but since I had promised my buddies that I would go down, I tried to keep my words.
I was busy with my phone and thus I left my house quite late. The hangover was still dwelling me and my head was spinning. My brain and body were partially numbed but some of them claimed that I jumped extremely high that night, and joked that I should have taken alcohol before any volleyball game in future.
I suffered an injury on my left ear when I went down to get the ball and Oliver dashed over in his usual childishness for the already lost ball. The pain stayed with me for many days.
That night, we went to East Coast Park’s Carl’s Junior where I had my late dinner. Initially they wanted to catch a movie but dropped the idea. I was quite worried that they purposely made the way down to the east just for the convenience of sending me home after that.
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Somehow, I’m back to the normal life, but even healthier. Exercising helps to keep my mind clearer, though I cannot concentrate at all.
Life still sucks.
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早睡早起身体好。
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My plan to stay a healthy lifestyle by jogging on at least every Saturday evening did not sustain after two weeks of trying.
The route to my beautiful destination, Marina Barrage, was far too polluted by all the construction works. This discouraging fact, of course, was not the prime factor, but time was.
I loved girls-watching but I could control my eyes if anyone worthy wanted me to keep my eyes off them. This was one of the reasons I hesitated to go down to the Barrage again.
This day, I had exerted myself at the chin-up bars with Rachael, Amanda, Andy and Alvin, doing a maximum of twelve pulls with two fingers from each hand. I could have done better since I did not do any set on the day before. In the end, I almost failed to jerk my waist up to the top of the bar. When they requested me to do again, I knew I was helpless.
“Gone with the wind, to a faraway place, pushing my lungs further.”
Taking my sore throat and coughing lungs along, I made the move to have my jog again with my head a little spinning like as if I was going to run a fever soon. Somehow, my phone’s memory card gave me problems and I could not play mp3 on the way. My numbed body and brain allowed me to pace faster than before.
At the junction near the club house, I went straight and turned right to the Marina South Pier instead of turning left towards Marina Barrage. I took around 17 minutes from Singapore Conference Hall to reach my destination.
The stairs were crowded with smokers and cigarette butts were all around. It was different from months ago when I last went over. I did not rest for long before I proceeded home as the darkness was overwhelming the sky. I took another 19 minutes to go back.
Sweating out was good enough to relieve stress but not sadness.
I should not be jogging alone this evening.
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