Fake Love

No matter how hard you have played me, no matter how many times you have lied you have started falling for me, and no matter how many empty promises you have given me, I will not hold it against you.

I believe there is someone out there willing to accept you for who you really are, so that you do not need to change at all; although your life is absurd.

I have done my best.

I’m glad I am able to push you till your second last paper at least, though you never want to listen.

This is your life you have chosen and the love you have given up.

I believe the best way to love you is to let you go.

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I made Mockery

I finally dated my girlfriend out after not seeing her for four days.

When she messaged me online, I replied her slow. And when she mentioned she was going to reach the destination early, I told her I was leaving my house. When she nearly reached the place, I had not even boarded the bus. She even tried to send me a message in case I would be thinking that she was angry, but I did not reply her.

After we met up, I told her I was going to have dinner with another girl I met online. It was 5.30pm and my date was at 8pm.

She had plans for the evening – getting movie tickets, having a good dinner together with me and playing at the arcade, which I enjoyed so much. At least, I knew beforehand we had agreed to catch a movie.

I was busy all along, holding my phone, calling other girls and replying SMSes.

My girlfriend looked very sad and disappointed. I suggested going to play pool, which she accepted just because of me.

On the bus, she knocked onto my ear, which was swollen after I pierced despite her disapproval, simply to remind myself of the pain given by my ex-girlfriend.

During the game, I did not stop replying SMSes from the girls. It was a less than an hour of game before I had to rush off to meet the girls. I continued to enjoy the messages from the girls on the bus in front of my disappointed girlfriend.

I said sorry uncountable times that night, knowing I would do it again.

Would you ever put yourself in others’ shoes and think of how they would feel? Would you not do something that you do not want others to do to you?

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Hangover at Zaki’s Place

Staying over at Zaki’s place, at Parc Emily, over Friday night was great. Basically, he made me realized true friends were always there to help no matter what. He was not even scare of me puking all over his place like how Hirman did the previous time.

I slept early on his bed. My head was spinning with pain and my mood was unstable. I woke up around twice at nine plus and three plus due to my phone. Other than that, it was one of the longest duration I had slept for the past few years.

He walked me to the coffee shop nearby to have roti prata together. Afterwards, he cleaned up the house while I played with his cat. Then, we walked from his place to Funnan Centre and I finally got to know how centralized his place was. I was tempted by an Acer laptop Aspire 4736 at the price of $1200.

Next, we went to Raffles’ City to do his groceries, where I picked up a few skills from him in selecting food and fruits.

I probably needed a few weekends of staying over there in order to recuperate from all these years’ fatigue, especially the recent stress. The tranquility was tempting.

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