I smile, I laugh, I scream and joke like a mad guy. This is how I become happier that I care less than before. I can’t be bothered about how others would think and mock about me. This is the path to a better life I suppose, just like when I was young and more …
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A wake of life
Mike woke me up in a flash of time. There were so many things that he could teach me and I realised I could do more. I was reminded again I was falling behind time. What I had been were earning me nothing; perhaps some compliments were nice but definitely wouldn’t fill my stomach. This …
I know why
From then on, I realised what are the reasons I hate to stay – not the amount of work. Human beings are always the factor to living. With hypocritical and screwed up management, with selfish and shy people, the place is hell. I remember doing all types of shit at Taiwan and there’s always a …
I see I know I realise
I always give no thought of how long I would take to accomplish a task alone. Partly, I’m influenced by the old saying “if you’re determined you can work anything out”. So, I always do things blindly, putting in my full effort, but I don’t know my limit. Maybe this is the reason some friends …
Inspiring meeting
The meeting with Anthony on Monday evening added remorse to me. My repeated unexpected delay in the camp caused the movie catch to cancel off even though I sweat my uniform smelly on the first day of the week. We had dinner instead and I was guilty all along the way. We began discussion about …
Weakness
I hadn’t played a game so well for long. This time, my team consisted of three outsiders, too weird to be true that I had performed when I was nervous. It was probably due to the extra concentration I had put in, especially the skill and spirit of my teammates. After all these years, I …
The light
I don’t know why so many things are beyond control, that is, no matter how much effort I’ve put in, it’s pointless. It’s not about being pessimistic or not, but the fact of life. The worst thing is when one doesn’t know his own limit, pressing on everything blindly. He doesn’t get what he really …
Change for the better
I’m not an expert but a trainee, trying to learn to say “no”. Human beings are lazy and often refuse to put in efforts. I can’t spoon-feed them all the way, because every man needs his own free time, so do I. I really don’t know and I can’t waste anymore time digging up information …
Who I want to meet
I want to meet myself when I’m full of confidence. I’d gladly reject any unreasonable approach or demand without hesitating. I’d enjoy each day doing only things that I like and things that I think are appropriate. I’d live without hypocrites, kicking fakers and lamers away from my sight. I’d earn enough money to build …