看清了这世界，
看透了虚伪和放荡。
我注重的、珍惜的，
并不是每个人都在乎的。
这现实太繁杂，
而我又敌不过倔强与堕落。
我停了一口气，
这地球还是在转动。
生态一天天地被污染，
人心也一样。
这是一种疾病，
渐渐地摧毁着生命。
我累了。
我累了。
我累了。
我累了。
Thursday, 19 November, 2009
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谢谢你
谢谢你选择离开我的视线，
让我能渐渐地把你忘掉。
忘了你的可爱、忘了你身躯的摆动、
也忘了你对我的玩弄。
我会慢慢地失去对你的担忧，
因为人始终会清醒，
明白世界是虚伪的，
而有些人是改变不了的。
你的爱情只是一种游戏，
在人群中留下无情的回忆。
你的生命只有疑惑，
因为你搞不清谁是真假。
记得我对你的好，
承认你的叛逆。
在你哀伤时，
回味你曾幸福过。
Wednesday, 18 November, 2009
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Beautiful Start of the Day
I started off yesterday morning in great delight. I met the cute QA students and Julian kept me entertained throughout the way from Clementi MRT station to the campus. Another great thing was to witness the bus driver going down to help the wheel-chaired student up the bus. Great people made life beautiful.
I proceeded straight to the chin-up bar for the first time this week and managed to complete another set of 12 pulls. I did not know I could do it since my entire body was still weak from the body checkup the day before. I did not expect Chi Chiang to witness my pathetic struggle in my bag containing the laptop.
I went for early lunch with Jingkun. His timetable was quite different from the rest and I was not bothered for the day. We went to West Coast together and even though we chatted quite a lot, we actually took shorter time than usual.
I found myself a normal classroom to avoid all the noises and especially the freezing air-conditioner. Having spent the afternoon with the new project and some aliasing of work, until four plus, Weiming asked me to help him to close the lab. I ended up debugging PHP codes for them and suddenly, Weitat called me to inform me there was a meeting going on.
I was very late for the meeting and when I opened the door, the big bosses were around to give me a shock.
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Body Fats 8.5%
Yesterday, the most interesting event was the body checkup conducted by the Fitness Training students. When Joy found out that Felina’s body fat was actually more than what we had expected, she changed her mind and asked me to go down together with her for the test.
It started with the normal height and weight test, measuring of body fats and blood pressure, followed by the heart beat and biceps strength test. All was good for me except that I had to do exercises that could help to increase the oxygen intake for my body. My body fat was 8.5%, which amazed the rest of them, but Dorothy nagged that I should eat more since anything below 8% was unhealthy for a guy.
The sit-and-reach test for my maximum of 30 centimetres strained my chest muscle for I had not done that for very long. Lastly, the half squat leaning on the wall almost destroyed me entire at the beginning since I had tired my legs in the early morning. However, since Joy was holding it well for 3 minutes 8 seconds, I pressed on the trembling to beat her timing so that I would not “throw my face”.
I had lunch together with Meihoe, Dorothy, Weitat and Daniel at the usual “Dead end”.
Chi Chiang waited for my lesson to end at 5pm so as to give me a ride on his bike. Slicing through the wind was very comfortable.
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Registered for Driving Basic Theory
It was not my idea to be committed anymore for there was more things for me to focus on, or rather, I could have spent more time resting instead. I ended up joining Jingkun for lunch at 1pm instead of the rest at 12pm. I did not take breakfast because my mum woke up late.
Jingkun and I made our way to Bukit Timah food centre. It was a good place for there seemed to be quite a handful of babes around. I wanted to take western food but one of the stalls was not selling it for maybe they wanted to try switching to fried hokkien mee or whatever. I took a long queue for a plate of chicken rice, but it tasted quite okay.
After lunch, Jingkun sent me down to BBDC. It was his idea and finally I registered for an account so that I could book my basic theory. I felt ashamed for having him to push me to do it.
I had a busy afternoon walking around, being requested for helps and also to confirm some issues with my boss. Bernard sent Weiming, Mdm Seet and I to Dover MRT station and I reached Plaza Singapura quite early. I took my dinner at Long John Silver’s alone since none of my group members was early, before making my disappointing way to the crowded and small Daiso outlet.
Next, I proceeded straight to The Cathay’s Starbucks where Jeremy joined me soon after. I was badly distracted by the hot girls walking past and sitting nearby.
Due to the commitments, I took my medicine only once for the day, totally forgotten about it except in the late afternoon.
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Jogged in Injuries and under the Rain
On Saturday, I started the morning earlier than usual. Just as I was enjoying myself in the C&C game, my mum asked me if I wanted to go and visit the doctor. I went alone to the Chinese physician for the first time, having a long queue outside.
After that, I went to the POSBank and was punished by the extremely long and slow queue. When it was my turn, I told the lady I wanted to change my ATM card and she claimed that I had to foot $5 for it. immediately, I asked her to upgrade my card to the “Go!” card and thus, the fee was waived off. I wanted to do it since long ago but I did not have a more complicated signature. On the spot, I had to come out with a new one, which I could have forgotten how I would sign it in future.
Before I went home, I went to find my hairdresser to book a schedule at 5.30pm. I had some naps before I went down to get my hair trimmed neatly again.
In the evening, I went for a jog towards my favourite place under the dark sky. I was probably insane to proceed in my body and the weather’s condition. I dragged on my injured right thigh and ankle, struggling since the start of the trip; the past few days of working-out had almost drained my energy completely. One of the greatest problems was that the Chinese medicine seemed to create stomachache for me to release all the toxic inside my body and I felt so uncomfortable throughout.
It started drizzling when I reached the place where there were many coaches around to fetch tourists. Though I took 31 minutes from Shenton Way to reach there, the sun had almost set off since I started off late. Kite-flying was as usual, together with large groups of people. There was a birthday celebration among a group of people, girls wearing gorgeous dresses and the guys seemed very fortunate. There were families and couples but no lonely soul except me.
The journey back took me even longer, increasing the timing by another three minutes. Luckily, the rain did not pour heavily on me. I was famine on the way but there was nothing much I could do. The jog was a test to my limit and I knew I should continue to push myself in all aspects of life. I could do it.
After reaching home, my mum was the only person around and she started nagging that my brothers and my elder brother’s girlfriend had gone out for dinner despite she had cooked porridge with lots of extra ingredients such as bean curd and mushroom.
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Seclude from all People
i know you too well lah
you are those type if sad, you will tend to overreact happy
slowly bah
hahah
you usually happy
then after a while, you will stay quiet then seclude yourself from all people
I didn’t know myself until yesterday, Irwin spilt out my secret. I stared in blank for a moment and nodded to myself.
It took 13 years to reach that confident claim of his but human being would mature over times and learn to be stronger than ever.
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Finished a Book
A miracle happened on Friday late night on my way home – I finished reading a book. It was probably the second storybook which I had ever completed since secondary school days.
“Tuesdays with Morris” was recommended and loaned to me by Zaki. It was a book about life, indicating the thoughts of a dying teacher, Morris. The way he looked at life was remarkable. There were many quotes worth remembering even though my memory was too bad to recap any of them for now.
I hope the book can make big impact on its readers’ mindset.
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Injured – Finally Physically Again
Yesterday morning, it rained heavily, just like my mood. I was drenched badly and my entire pant was soaked. It was an uncomfortable morning.
Weitat left for his Exams, Dorothy and Daniel went for Healthy Lifestyle program at Simei, whereas Mei Hoe took her lunch with Vivian. Jingkun and I met up with Zaki, Eunice and Christine for lunch. Joy was joining us but she changed her mind on the way. We were waiting at the carpark, worrying for her as it was raining heavily.
It was a good lunch. I had the dory fish meal and the mashed potato was fantastic. After that, I took a daring try on the soft ice-cream at the level one when I was already sick.
During the afternoon’s meeting, my boss amazingly cut down many unnecessary works on the new website and also simplified it. We had great laugh over it but I was quite worried of the tight schedule. I would have visited the doctor if not for the meeting.
I was the last man to leave the office. I made way for the Indian man to close everything, moving myself down to the canteen to continue with my work while feeding the mosquitoes. I almost finished off the main components of a love story but it could be too sensitive and “dark” to be uploaded into my website.
The MPH was crowded. The Philippinos, Wong Engineering, Jurong Central CSC and the uncles made four teams; whereas, my side could almost form two teams.
During my second set of game, while saving a ball at position one, I thrust diagonally upwards to the maximum. I managed to save the ball but could not land well and both my right elbow and upper thigh was injured. There was an immediate swollen on the elbow near the joint, whereas I could feel weakness on my leg. The game did not stop but I started using underarm serving and surprisingly managed to score many points. I did not get to touch the ball many times after that and we lost the game.
It was a very long wait outside the court. They could not confirm whether they wanted to have supper together after the game and thus, I stayed on. I had my last game but my team’s strength was extremely weaker than the Jurong Central CSC side. We started losing points very early. Since winning was never on my mind, I was able to play freely, giving the opponent the best I could. I was able to give a couple of good spike in my injuries and tiredness from the past few days’ workouts.
Alas, they decided not having dinner and I left home by myself before 11pm, staggering my way towards the MRT station. My dinner was instant bowl noodle.
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SMS Exploded
Dear friends,
If you do not receive acknowledgment via SMS from me for this month, please do not feel weird. I won’t be replying messages such as “OK”.
If you wish to chat, just drop me a call or message me via MSN.
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