Dear Dreams – Page 209

When she first went to BMCC

[Sunday, 03 September, 2006]

Finally I got to show her to some of my BMCC volleyball friends.

Before that was meet up at BM bus interchange and a little tour inside the NTUC to search for her FBT shorts but we realised her neighbour might have made a mistake. Then, we went to the hawker centre for our lunch.

She took chicken rice at a stall called something like “888 Chicken”, where they served very dried rice with only a few pieces of meat which did not seem appetizing to me at all. Whereas, I took a plate of chicken chop from the opposite stall for four bucks, of a small serving also, but the taste was quite alright. The drinks stall gave us free tissue paper.

We reached the community centre at around three thirty, an hour after the scheduled time, but only Jingpeng, Kok Chiang, Jingkun and another ITE girl was around. At first I thought they might tease me over her and so I did not brief anything and they pretended I was alone. Then, I realised it was a wrong move.

So, for the first hour I was struck there sitting on the ground besides her. She was too shy to do anything and refusing to play volleyball even when she was already dressed in sports attire. I could have dragged her out to play but maybe I was too lack of sleep and lazy to make any move.

There were a number of rare faces around. The worst thing was the absence of the CTSS girls who I thought she could click with and also the presence of only a few girls. Mingfa was however smart enough to suggest her to play with my camera instead.

The games went on well except for the recurrence of same mistake like in the past – the enthusiastic of the players. It was really fine at first when everyone was still fit enough but as the bodies were drained, it was not welcoming to see half-hearted faces who did not seem to want to move at all.

I felt bad for having to leave her there alone. The worst thing was that she did not even want to go nearer to the court so that no ball would hit her and thus she could not catch our jokes. Even though sometimes my friends’ girlfriends also watched by the side without any complaint, I was sure she had better things to do. The feeling was worse when she had to call her friends in order to entertain herself.

It was a regret to play my last game though nobody expected it to be so bored. After changing, they were ready to pack up as well and I was sure Mingfa knew what was going on despite the urging from some of them to have more games and that was why he stopped it.

I ended the stress and finally left the place with her. I was supposed to send her home but as we reached the bus interchange, her mum called and wanted to pick her up. In fact, her mum was already around the area some time ago to search for her previous daughter. It was very saddening that I still had to hide myself when she went to meet her family up.

I went back to join the rest and we went to dine at KFC again. This time, we confirmed that for each student meal required one student card each. This stupid idea could have pissed so many customers off; we could easily queue up the second or third time if we only had a student card with us. I understood the management of MacDonald’s was much better than KFC and that was why MacDonald’s had attracted more customers.

Spy?

Sweetie on phone

Pigson looking blur here

The Ming brothers

Stranger’s feast at KFC, fetish for colesaw or whipped potatoes?

Playing game is a form of relaxation

Playing the game “Romance of the three kingdoms series three” was a major entertainment for me still after so many years.

Recently, I just realise it helps me a lot when I am stressed; it gives me more confidence than anything else.

I know it is very outdated already and that I know too many tricks to not able to beat computers in the game, but still, I love it a lot.

When you are feeling down or stressed, why not just find some games to divert them away? I used to think that playing games is a waste of time and a hinder to my work, but come to think of it, it actually helps me to move on.

汉武大帝 (Han Wu Da Di)

[Wednesday, 06 September, 2006]
Zhang Qian finally returned to Chang An (Capital of China during early Han Dynasty) after his thirteen years of departure to the North, across the Xiong Nu territory, in search of the Yue Zhi country. He was assigned the ambassador to form an alliance with Yue Zhi to join the war against the Xiong Nu.
He led a hundred men on this mission in the early reign of Han Wu Di, however, being caught by the Xiong Nu. He was a captive for a few times throughout the thirteen years and eventually found the Yue Zhi country, who was indulging in their present peaceful lifestyle and refusing to go for war against the Xiong Nu to avenge for their humiliation.
Zhang Qian, in the end managed to escape the imprisonment from a final capture by the Xiong Nu who had by then lost a great war against the Hans (Chinese).
The scene when he went to meet the emperor (Han Wu Di) made a great impact on me. He had gone through so much and it was all true history – heroic story of human. I love this show so much that I can never miss any episode.
I enjoy Chinese historic stories a lot but the beginning was quite boring, whereas the ending was always tragedy. I love all the warring parts, because they are more of bravery and tactics, unlike our modern day’s ones which the stronger arm power would win. I respect the virtues of the heroes.

汉武大帝 (Han Wu Da Di)

汉武帝

So much for my love for Chinese historic stories, this show is one of the most touching ones I have ever seen. The sacrifices of heroes and the efforts they contributed touched my heart in every episode. Moreover, it comes with a great song which I doubt many people would appreciate, but I am still loving it.
Title: 等待 (Waiting)
Artist: 韩磊
Lyrics:
我为什么,还在等待.
我不知道为何会这样痴情.
明知辉煌,过后是暗淡.
仍期待着,会一切从头来过.
我既然曾经拥有.
我的爱就不想停顿.
每个梦里,都有你的梦.
共同期待一个永恒的春天
春天.
片头 (Opening of the show)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxEaIaFwW0A

The operation date was set

[Tuesday, 05 September, 2006]

Finally I got to know my operation’s date for my left calf – Thursday, 21 September, 2006.

I arrived at Clinic “C” twenty-five minutes earlier and waited for more than half an hour before my number was called. I knew that I would be able to go in quite early (compared to usual) since I was the third to reach, though it was not in sequence.

It was Dr. Tay who attended to me. He was a pleasant looking guy who was much better than other specialists in terms of sincerity; he was careful and patient in explaining details to me and did not rush me out. I betted I was hesitating quite long inside and delayed the next appointment.

The problem with my calf was a kind of tumour, but not a major one. The overgrowth of blood vessel was said to be somehow happened during the growing and developing years of my life, which of course was a bad sign.

Dr. Tay was talking to Dr. Sebastian and they seemed to be impressed that the muscle there was very well-built. I thought it was good and flattering until they explained to be some of the muscle would be sliced off as well. I was stunned. There would also be a long scar and a little dent-in.

I was scared of course and it was not the usual shivering, but a vomiting one just like having a blood test. I was not sure if my face was pale a not, but the imagination of the operation, cutting of my blood vessel and the blood that would flow out were terrifying.

Since the lump was getting so obvious for the past few months, giving me irritation and might get worse in future, I decided to remove it.

After leaving the room, I went to another room to make appointment and get more details from the nurse. Then, I realised I had to go for another appointment one week before the operation at the Pre-Admission Testing Centre. A blood test and more awaited me…

Breaking down

[Tuesday, 05 September, 2006]

The alliance of the problems penetrates through my entire brain. The stress I can never describe is blocking my thinking. The fear is bugging me daily as well, following by the drizzling of time.

I am nothing but a worrier. I am never able to cope with my problems but still manage to meddle in others’ affairs.

So, one day I might just burst out or even break down, just like now.

Taking care of two girls

[Saturday, 02 September, 2006]

She woke me up in the morning to ask me to the library to study and I promised her to meet at one. I looked at my watch and it was only eight plus. She woke me up the second time and I looked at my watch, it was still eight plus. I went back to sleep and later realised I had accidentally changed the mode to alarm time, which was set at 0840h, and that was why the time was forever eight plus.

Jesselyn and her Mac Flurry

Beloved Vivi

She was delayed as usual and we met after two. Even though I had been discouraging her from eating at fast food restaurant, her sister wanted it so much and I decided to make them happy for the day.

We proceeded to the library but could not find good seats and had to camp at the floor. It was a great distraction with her around because I could not keep my eyes off her. I did a little planning on my notebook but knowing my knowledge was still not enough to execute the plan.

Later, I did a little study on the PHP book, which I had just renewed, but got sleepy soon. After dozing off a while on her shoulder, next was a bad position with one elbow on the ground, which caused aching on my left shoulder. She gave me good massages and followed by her sister who unintentionally caused a pain on the inflamed shoulder. We ended the “studying” session before seven after she finished reading the storybook.

Next was a stop at the Old Chay Kee while we saw her two friends. After reaching her void deck, we took some photos but sadly, I did not get to take any with her.

Act cute

Act ugly

So cute!

Pretty sisters

It was never as planned

[Monday, 04 September, 2006]

She woke me up not very early in the morning but I still could not get up. I did try to sleep early like 0100h as promised, but it was a waste of time to lie down there for near two hours before dozing off; it was actually my most energetic hours when I could do more things than in the day.

My head was heavy but the determination picked me up and dragged me away from the bed. I was rushing down to catch the train which would arrive in two minutes but met Bianhong’s mum. I could not recognise her at first because she looked much younger and so much like Wanyi. She called out for me and we had a little chat before I missed the train. Next was Jinxu passing by and it was a short but nice chat with him before I alighted from the train at Tiong Bahru.

I was earlier than her despite being my heavy steps. I was looking forward to catch up with her before she suddenly messaged me that her mum was going there for breakfast as well and told me to go down to the MRT to wait for her. I was just so pathetic.

She soon arrived and I insisted to help her to top up her ezlink card again since she only left with thirty cents inside. It was my promise to accompany her to Boonlay to her friend’s house for her to study; I thought at least I could get to enjoy some extra personal moment with her. Later, she told me she was meeting her friend at Jurong East to disappoint me a little. She called her friend immediately as planned I supposed but most girls were often late birds.

I told her we could just go directly to Boonlay, the final destination, to eat but she insisted Jurong East. We got down to Jurong Entertainment Centre and she brought me to MacDonald’s again. I knew it was very unhealthy to dine often at fast food restaurant and I had felt the strong “heat” inside my body already, but decided it was just too convenient for us.

At least, I thought we could enjoy a nice meal together slowly, until she suddenly called her friend again, who had arrived Jurong East. The two big packets of fries were still almost untouched and we had to takeaway. I did not know how I should feel. After accompanying them to Boonlay, I left for home myself and dozed off right at the seat.

I wondered if the government would consider giving grants to people with girlfriends for transportation, especially those who were charged on adult fares. Whereas, a terminology could be implemented to detect excess use of ezlink card in just an hour to offer at least fifty percent discounts.

Basically, I sucked so much that the Singapore Waiting Hospital was playing on me that I still did not know when my operation would be on. I could not possibly get a part-time job now and state my medical appointment dates, or even suddenly tell them I had an operation to go for.

I guessed I was a total let-down.

GESS 2G 97’ gathering

[Friday, 01 September, 2006]

The outing slipped out of my mind again and again. Until around 1900h on the day itself, just half an hour more to go, I messaged Jinyu to confirm about it.

Since the gathering was a get-together dinner, I promised my mum to go home for supper even though she had cooked a lot; I thought it would be just nice timing that my stomach would be empty again after reaching home.

I managed to reach Cityhall at around 0730h. Holding on to the phone to chat with Vivi, ignoring the fact that I could not see any familiar face and I walked round and round. I put down the phone to call Sean, Jinyang and Tianfa but none of them picked up.

However, later Tianfa brought me good news that Zhenyi had arrived and I managed to meet up with him and Minting. Zhenyi’s face had grown more mature that I could hardly recognise him, whereas for Minting, she was almost totally the same from the past, pretty of course. We waited for Benny to come and then walked into Citylink.

Next was the meet up with Wanwei and Peiyi before we went to Marina Square to join up with the latecomers who went there directly. I got to see Thiam Huat, Jinyu, Shilin, Yanling, Karlye and Siling as we waited outside “Dian Xiao Er” until 2100h, they told us to give up waiting since the kitchen was going to stop orders in half an hour’s time and it was still crowded.

We crossed over to the restaurant opposite, which was “Hans”. Since it was so late already and I still had to take dinner at home, I was in a deep hesitation whether to eat there a not. In the end, I chose to go on diet after putting my financial status into consideration.

Benny and Zhenyi impressed me so much with their memories that so many of the past jokes were still printed so deeply inside their brains and being exploited this night. We shifted to the MacDonald’s as the staffs began to close the restaurant.

We had another round of laughers as it got into eleven o’clock. Since some of them had to work, we decided to disband. We only managed to take a few photos and the group ones were taken from too far.

Benny, Zhenyi, Tianfa, Kailun

Standing: Tianfa, Kailun, Jinyu, Peiyi, Wanwei
Sitting: Benny, Zhenyi, Shilin, Minting, Yanling

真诚心声 – 许绍洋

[Sunday, 03 September, 2006]

An Autumn Diary (秋天日记)

I was watching a show, An Autumn Diary (秋天日记), on channel 8 from 0145h to 0400h. It was a show quite absurd at times, about a rich girl leaving house for a cheater. She was so quick-witted and yet could be fooled by him, who managed to even steal a ring just by pretending to guide tourists up the bus, and finally left her when he realised she had fallen out with her wealthy dad. Then, she met this guy who worked at the beach hotel and the love chemistry started out.

The song sang by the male lead actor, Xu Shao Yang, was simple and heart warming; it definitely added some live into the movie.

真诚心声 – 许绍洋

哭一生笑一生～何不快乐过一生
人心变幻莫测～喜怒哀乐集一身
哭一生笑一生～前方无尽的前程
用真心交换了～每份真诚的心声
from this day we are the one
kitalah sehati sejiwa(马来西亚语)
heart to heart we shaing together
kawanlah belita hidup ku (马来西亚语)
kawanlah belita hidup ku (马来西亚语)

My lovely angel

[Thursday, 31 August, 2006]

I was feeling down but never wanted to miss the day with her. In the rain, I strolled towards the bus-stop slowly, having so much to reproach myself for. She was fast on her pace, wearing a cap without umbrella and reached the park even before me.

I was quite shocked at first for her dressing was totally different from what she usually wore. The long sleeve shirt, loose on the shoulder was the stylish type greatly appreciated by me and moreover, she was wearing a skirt just for me.

The stress on my face could not be hid but I was never good at expressing myself that it took me quite long to explain to her why I was so quiet.

We took train to Somerset and it was pouring heavier than earlier on. The scenario was just like the second time we went out, at the same place, around the same time and with the same umbrella.

We went to the “More than words” shop to get her sister a birthday present before getting a ticket to “The break up”. We rushed to take our lunch at Long John Silvers’ and were in time for the show.

It was a good show despite the fact that the title was not suitable for us. She sweetly suggested going over to Hereen just for taking neoprints again. It was though expensive, but still a memorable thing to do with my sweet girl.

The passion, the trueness of life

Of some coolness, she looks incredibly seducive

A love promise, my sexy lady

I love this picture the most; clear and sweet smiles!

I liked this machine a lot for our faces were not covered up totally by the lighting, able to reveal the contours of our faces so that others would not be able to disguise as us easily – basically most people look the same in those neoprint machines with strong lighting. However, the printing sucked that the output was quite blur.

With that, I ended the day by sending her home. It was a very sweet day somehow, which was beyond words to express. She looked sweet in her sweet character, with all the sweet words she put in and especially the sweet things she did.