Still waiting for the day and that’s why I’m trying so hard each day.
It seems near yet far and I’m still figuring out how to cross over.
The endless path takes my smiles away
Like the forceful water washing off river banks.
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Project BOE (Birds on Estacy) – Green Parrot Escaped
[Friday, 21 May, 2010]
Before my mum went to sleep, she placed her passport on the table and asked me to help her fill up the declaration card for visiting Malaysia.
My butts started aching after the previous night’s gym. I continued with my work after clearing up my email. My mum returned in the afternoon and told me to help her friend to fill up the declaration card as well.
While continuing with my work alone in the house, I turned to the kitchen and saw the yellow parrot in an unusual view for it seemed to appear clearer. After a while, I sensed something was wrong and walked to the kitchen to my most astonishing moment of the year that the yellow parrot was clinging at the outside of the cage while the green parrot flew out from the bathroom.
I quickly checked the windows of the bathroom and toilets to make sure they were closed. The green bird flew into the living room and I proceeded to close the windows in the kitchen and by then, the green bird was at the door and soon, disappeared.
I did not know how the birds managed to escape from the cage and thus I simply closed the door between the kitchen and living room to keep the yellow bird inside the kitchen. I quickly went up and down two storeys to search for the stupid green parrot but it was not around. My mum returned home to get ready for her Johor trip and when I opened the kitchen’s door, I was amazed that the yellow parrot had gone back into the cage by herself. My mum could easily find the hole that was meant for the food container, which my brother did not secure properly after removing the container.
I crossed over to the opposite block and tried to look over for the parrot’s movement but I could not see anything. I returned and went to the top storey of my block, and walked down the stairs to every storey in my muscle aching legs but my effort was reward-less.
The green parrot could have flown into other people’s house and the greedy new owner would never expect that it would peck on human beings, including my elder brother. In another scenario, it would be attacked by other birds in my neighbourhood.
I finally had a game of Command and Conquer ever since before my elder brother’s Thailand trip, but I played it alone to release stress. Soon, my mum called and told me that she had changed her plan and would stay overnight at Johor.
My dinner and supper included a bowl instant noodle, followed by a cup of Vitagen, an ice-cream stick, the leftover breads that my mum forgot to eat and cereal.
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Second Gym Session with Tze Khit
[Thursday, 20 May, 2010]
My toilet bowl got into worse condition and the water refused to subside.
In the afternoon, I was too engrossed in my programming that I went to Tze Khit’s gym late. I continued my work while watching him trained his client and I was again impressed by his professionalism. He made efforts in his work. After that, he decided to go home to change his phone as his new iPhone died on him. I made my way home for dinner and he told me he would take around an hour.
After finishing my dinner, my mum went to the corridor and stood there for quite some time. I noticed something was wrong and went out to talk to her. She was very unhappy because of her ungrateful boss’ nonsense and he was very troubled by the toilet bowl as well. I stood beside her for some time before managing to get her in to rest by lying that the inconsiderate smoker was smoking again. After the plumper arrived, Tze Khit gave me a call and I went down to meet him up.
After getting a packet of dinner, we went up to the gym and he started teaching me basic warm-up methods. However, I was very distracted with my phone. The pub’s owner below the gym had invited him and his friends down for the last night before they winded up the business there. I did not want to join them for I was never interested in pubbing and especially at indecent ones where the girls would take advantages of male customers. I waited for Bobby to arrive and left for home.
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朴完奎 – 缘 (Fate)
nai ga, neo mu, yak hai seo
因为我太脆弱
nai ga, neo mu, na ba seo
因为我太坏
keu cheo, i reoh kei, neo reur, bo go man, i teo
所以只是这样看着你
na yi, ji chin, ma eum do
我疲惫的心
na yi, ki peun, sang cheo do
我深深的伤
o rain, gi eok cheo reom, i cheo sseot na bua
像很久前的记忆般被遗忘了吧
na reur, kam dang har, su ga, eo peo
无须承担
neo ei sei man, mai dar ri sei, dui
只陪着你就行
neo, i reoh gei, ka chi ma
你别这样离去
nai, sim chang i, neo reur, bu reu ja na
我的心不是在呼唤着你吗
mi chi bo rok, ja nin han, i neo nei
残忍到让人疯狂的缘分里
peo i sang, a mu geos bu, har, su ga, eo pa
再也无法做些什么
seur peun, na wi, mo seup bo
我悲伤的模样
seur peun, neo wi, nun bich bo
你悲伤的眼神
geu cheo, seu chyeo ga neun, pa ra mi ryeo na
也只是擦肩而过的风
geo chin, pa ram so ri ei
呼啸而过的风声里
gui reur, ma ka bo chi man
虽然什么都听不到
neo reur, bo reun, neu neun, ma geur, su, eo peo
但是看着你的眼却没瞎
ga teun, ha neu ra hai, neo wa, na
同一片天空下的你和我
ta reun, gu seur, bo gu, it na bua
看着不同的地方吧
neo, i reoh gei, ga chi ma
你别这样离去
nai sim jang i, neo reur, bu reur ja na
我的心不是在呼唤着你吗
mi chi do rug, ja nin han, i nyeo nei
残忍到让人疯狂的缘分里
teo i sang, a mu geos do, har, hu sa, eo peo
再也无法做些什么
tteo ti, eop neun, ma eu mei
无止境的心里
peo rir, su ga, eop neun, yog si mi
无法抛弃的欲望
na, i reoh gei, win ha go, win hai do
我就这样渴望了再渴望
neor, ga jir, cha gyeog jo cha, eop neun, na in geor
却连得到你的资格也没有
geu reun, cha gyeog jo cha, eop neun, na in geor
连那种资格都没有的我…
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Tae Yeon – If (泰妍 – 如果)
(Tae Yeon Live Performance)
Man ya ge nae ga gan da myeon nae ga da ga gan da myeon
如果 我離去 一 步步離去的話
Nan eo tteo ge saen gak hal kka yon gi nael su eop go
我會怎麼想 鼓不起勇氣
Man ya ge ni ga gan da myeon ni ga tteo na gan da myeon
如果 你離去 你 離我而去的話
neol eo tteo ge bo nae ya hal ji ja ttu geo bi na neun geol
我該如何把你送走 總是害怕著
nae ga ba bo ga ta seo
或許我是個傻瓜
ba ra bol su ba tte ma neob neun geo a ma do
才會只是 呆呆地凝望著你
wu myeon hal ji do mo reul ni ma eum gwa
不知道害羞 和 你的心
Tto geu rae seo
所以
Deo meol reo jil sa i ga doel kka bwa
才會越來越遙遠吧
jeong mal ba bo ga ta seo
真的像個傻瓜
sa rang han da ha ji mo ha neun geon a ma do
才會連愛你的話也說不出口
man nam dwi e gi da ri neu a peum me
相遇之後的等待是多麼痛苦
seul peun na nal deul ri du ryeo wo seo in ga bwa
或許是害怕日子一天天地變得悲傷吧
ma nya ge ni ga on da myeon ni ga da ga on da myeon
如果 你來了 一 步步靠近的話
Nan eo tteoh ge hae ya man hal ji jeong mal ral su eob neun geol
我該如何做 真的無法知道
nae ga ba bo ga ta seo
或許我是個傻瓜
ba ra bol su ba ge man neob neun geon a ma do
才會只是 呆呆地凝望著你
wu myeon hal ji do mo reul ni ma eum gwa
不知道害羞 和 你的心
tto geu rae seo
所以
deo meol reo jil sa i ga doel ga bwa
才會越來越遙遠吧
jeong mal ba bo ga ta seo
真的像個傻瓜
sa rang han da ha ji mob ba neun geon a ma do
才會連愛你的話也說不出口
man nam dwi e gi da ri neun a peum me
相遇之後的等待是多麼痛苦
seul peun na nal deul ri du ryeo wo seo in ga bwa
或許是害 怕日子一天天地變得悲傷吧
nae ga ba bo ga ta seo
或許我是個傻瓜
sa rang han da ha ji mob pa neun geon a ma do
才會連愛你的話也說不出口
man nam dwi e gi da ri neu a peu me
相遇之後的等待是多麼痛苦
seul peun na nal deu ri du ryeo wo seo in ga bwa
或許是害怕日子一天天地變得悲傷吧…
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Out with Tze Khit and Bobby
[Wednesday, 19 May, 2010]
I lost to the sleep disease again. Even though I dozed off near daylight, I tried to set my alarm clock to wake me up early so that I could make myself more tired. In the end, I failed before I went back to sleep again.
At around 11am, my mum, however, woke me up for the air-conditioner servicemen were coming over soon. They were a father and son team and they worked quite professionally. They charged us $50 for diagnosing the problem of the system and also did a simple clean-up. Even though it was the first day of my brother’s work, he promised my mum to fork out the money first and he would return the sum to her later.
My brunch was chicken rice, which my mum bought from the stall that Bianhong’s mum worked at. It was much overpriced with the few pieces of bones.
I met up with Tze Khit and his partner, Bobby at the carpark and Tze Khit took us a ride to Sim Lim Tower. His driving was quite reckless but confident. After getting some fuses, we went to a foodcourt nearby where they had their lunch before we went to Sim Lim Square. Bobby was amazing with his knowledge even though he cracked too many jokes that I could not make up which were facts. Tze Khit got himself a thumbdrive, it seemed like Bobby was shopping while Tze Khit was merely footing the bill.
We went to Bras Basah Complex to print banners and the lady amazed me with her keyboard shortcuts with Illustrator. I knew I was not even fifty percent to a master of designer yet. I was not lucky for the lady whom they wanted me to look at was on leave. We moved on to shop around at the nearby A1 printing shop to look at brochure holder before we moved to the Popular Bookstore to compare prices. They bought a paper slicer and some stationery. I was tempted to the computer writing pad and sound speaker.
While going down the escalator, we saw a babe at the opposite direction and it was the luckiest moment of the day. We went to the A1 printing shop to purchase the holder while I was engrossed with all the interesting office equipments, especially a nicely designed signboard with calligraphy writing.
After getting all the items, we returned to Tanjong Pagar and had our dinner at the Burger King. Their $4.95 promotional set with the extra two chicken drumlets were a great pulling factor. Bobby was a very good father for he was troubled over his daughter’s little things. After the dinner, we went to back to the Gold’s Gym. Tze Khit had a client and I waited for his personal training session to end to set off together. We bid each other goodbye at the carpark.
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Resuming My Directory Project
[Tuesday, 18 May, 2010]
I was extremely pissed off by myself when I failed to doze off after midnight. I got up near 2am in order not to waste time tossing around, and eventually I resumed my work on the new website – a directory.
I started drafting a new layout for it to enhance the navigation.
In the afternoon, I continued with my work after I got up. I put the new design into HTML and I was quite impressed with the product after spending hours on it.
My mind was clearer than when I first designed the site and I could focus things better. Probably, I owed it to my ex polytechnic buddy, Yaozhong, for making me recap on the importance of it.
Next, I continued with the scripting.
Compared to the past few weeks when I was badly tortured by the thoughts of searching for a job, I was much more productive by setting it aside for a while and started doing what I was best at. It was programming that had killed the loneliness within me when nobody could afford time for me.
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Job Hunting in Websites
[Monday, 17 May, 2010]
My job hunting resumed on Monday. I looked through the job listing sites and list down the more ideal jobs on an Excel sheet. None of the ten over jobs I had entered into my database interested me enough.
I was not very sure what I wanted, but at least I knew I would prefer the company to be near my house since most of the better companies should be located in the business district and I should not go further away for a job, unless it was really interesting enough.
Looking at the Google Maps to find the locations of the companies and searching through Google for their websites were time-consuming.
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Who has Deleted you from their MSN List?
When I begin to realise that more people do not have me in their MSN contact list anymore, I start to wonder if there is any problem with MSN’s server.
You can configure your MSN to such that only people on your Allow List can see your status and send you messages, but I suppose many people uncheck that option so that it seems normal to their removed friends. They will not see the deleted friend but they can still be seen online.
Some people are close friends while some have just added me days ago; a couple of them still reply me when I message them. Apart from those friends I have made through social networking sites, I do not see the reason why would friends delete me just away just because we have not chatted for a few days or weeks.
I would not mind clearing my list but I’m feeling so puzzled whether the MSN server is working perfectly fine for I do not wish to delete any friend who has not done anything.
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Dinner with Caiping
[Sunday, 16 May, 2010]
I met up with Caiping at Cityhall MRT in the afternoon. After reaching the National Library at the level 5, we were so disappointed with the Wireless@SG’s connection over there that it kept dying off within a few seconds. The power point by the side of the outdoor area was powerless.
We walked back to Citylink but the Starbucks was crowded and we found ourselves luckier at the Starbucks at Marina Square. I was quite amazed by the design of the mall for it was the first time I really took a detailed looks around there while sitting down. So much for the late night sleep, I was not as noisy as usual.
After that, she did some researches for her project, we decided not to go for movie and instead, we went back to Citylink to the New York New York for dinner. I took my usual fish and chips and it proved the restaurant was a disappointment. When we told the manager we had found a bone inside the food, he merely told us it was some plastic materials, and nothing was done for service recovery. If Dorothy were around, she would definitely write a long and detailed email to complain about the lousy service.
Other than the service issue, the dinner was great and we had a long chat.
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