Dear Dreams – Page 250

Another similar Sunday

I hate it when I wake up too early on Sunday mornings. I’m just too used to wake up early nowadays and the sad thing is I always get sleepy early at night. It could be due to the smoke from the joss-sticks my mum always lights up before she leaves the house.

Sometimes when I’m trying my best to sleep longer, my neighbours would call and ask for my mum; while sometimes, my mum calls home to ask if we want breakfast.

Old people prefer to sleep early and wake up early, and this is indeed a good habit. However, there’re many people who try to work until their eyes can barely be opened before they end their days and you’ve to spare some thoughts for them. Whereas for me, I’m losing sleep for the past few weeks and it’s really cruel if you try to disturb me.

Obviously, I need some talks with my mum, because her kindness always gives me troubles unfortunately. She doesn’t come home at regular hours each Sunday, sometimes early and sometimes late at two plus in the afternoon. She can ask before we sleep and since I rarely would leave house so early at nine plus in the morning, her calls would only wake the whole family up, which she doesn’t seem to remember this theory no matter how many times I’ve explained to her.

This day like usual, I woke up at nine plus and couldn’t get back to sleep. My mum brought breakfast back soon but I didn’t have appetite after being woke up. For the whole morning I was so restless that I could only lie on the mattress to watch television programme. I managed to doze off only during the afternoon.

If you try to date someone out on the net and she doesn’t want to confirm with you before she goes to sleep, the next day she doesn’t reply your SMS because she’s “lazy”, and at night, she stops replying you halfway on the net upon you try to confirm again, give up.

And that I actually wanted to organise volleyball at BMCC for this day, I was lazy to hear excuses from friends who would claim busy again. The team’s friendship had indeed changed so much as expected ever since each of us was enlisted. Maybe, we had too much fun in the past that it seemed unbearable now when we were dispersing.

Late in the afternoon, I started with my Romance of the Three Kingdoms (series three) game again. In these two days, I continued from the previous saved game and finally completed it once again.

Your luck is with you

Would you want a guy who’s willing to do anything for you, or would you want a guy who can just make you laugh every moment?

There’s no wrong in any choice. Take the latter one who can give you secure life in future, because in this reality world, you need more than just love; it’s good that you can have both.

You got to smile because luck is falling on you.

Aimless night at Holland Village

It was a weird gathering at Holland Village organised by Kok Chiang. I didn’t know what it was for; Anqi called me and I thought it was going to be very happening, so I agreed since I was free.

She wanted to get a table at Ikea and we met there to wait for Tze Khit to pick us up. Both of us were late but she was later.

Ikea was a good place to see pretty girls, but it’d definitely make you jealous for they were attached. Even on the way there, at the bus-stop opposite Redhill MRT station, there was a couple behaving intimately.

I was a road idiot, not so bad, but still I couldn’t see the building when I was sitting at the back when it was so dark everywhere. Luckily, the next stop wasn’t too far away.

Tze Khit arrived soon after Anqi. I sensed lots of influence in his words. Basically, the type of plain table she was looking for didn’t interest me at all, therefore I couldn’t give much advice.

She chose a less stable one after some hesitation, which I thought wasn’t that good. The original one that she wanted to get was much more interesting and would be fun to assemble.

Anyway, it was dangerous to look for stuffs there since there were more than one price tag in many items. You’d to add them together to get the final price before you miscalculate and exceed your budget.

Night life at Holland Village was quite good with all the babes, but there wasn’t any event for us. It was an aimless night which boredom started to get us soon.

Tze Khit dropped me home first before he sent Anqi home. It was dark and I was losing conscious that I was so slow in giving him the direction when we were near my house.

Uneasy volleyball

Playing volleyball in the same team with old men who couldn’t dig, set, spike and didn’t even know the three-touch system was far too a terrible nightmare, until they started to nag around and underestimate your skill and professional in the game, you ought to point a gun at their heads to shut them up.

I didn’t expect we could come up with two teams, more unexpectedly; some of them could play well. I was seeded into the first team where the experts were in, but since Kian wee and Kenneth were in the second team, I accompanied them.

It was a meaningless game though I wanted so badly to play with Kian Wee. The floor was so slippery and I couldn’t even stand firmly to dig the ball well. However, I didn’t even have many chances to get to touch the ball; needless to say, I didn’t get to spike even once.

I was pulled over by Clement to his team in the next game. By then, I had already suffered from a blister on my left thumb and my energy had been exhausted by the resistance of the sliding. My momentum was lost and there wasn’t even slight mood for serious volleyball.

When the match started, I was astonished to witness how each of them played, so superbly, especially for Clement with his unbeatable spiking and leadership. I didn’t get many chances to touch the ball as well; however, we still managed to win quite easily.

After which, I was asked to play for the first team again, which was a wrong choice. It was a terrible game and then one of the elderly players remembered me and forbid me from playing in the semi-final, which they won the first set and ridiculously lost the other two. They were so close to victory and if only I was inside, it would be a piece of cake to deal with so many amateurs.

Though I had my place in the formation team, by courtesy of Clement who helped me in regardless of my nope display of skill (rusted one), I still felt it was a lousy day for I couldn’t do the team proud.

I missed the first bus again

This day I knew it was fatal to miss the last parade. I wished my prediction was wrong but luck had never taken pity on me. Everyone had expected for the worst, so they opted to leave first. Whereas for me, I was stuck since someone had to sacrifice.

I was waiting in a daze before being asked for help. Then I realised I could have caught the bus if we had done everything earlier. Maybe I couldn’t make a difference since I’d already tried my best to get things worked without being assigned to; I alone couldn’t do multiple jobs, nor did I have the aggressive to get everyone working.

I could have really left, leaving Chen De alone; one person staying was always better than both, so that not both of us had to take the second bus. If he had not been asleep or at least could have told me to write the voucher, we didn’t have to sacrifice.

When we missed the first bus, it took thirty-five minutes for the next and last one to arrive; it was such waste of time. And if we stayed for half an hour, we couldn’t update the overtime book, which was kind of based on hourly basis.

It was Thursday but the last day of my working day, so it was fine with me.

I'm not just sleepy

I’ve been a freaky zombie in camp these few days. With the aids of nose allergic that causes tired eyes, my terribly lack of sleep makes my face more pale.

But sometimes, I look too quiet to avoid being involved in any dramatic conversation with any potential actor. I fear of having friendly talks and a few minutes later, being backstabbed by someone. This isn’t cool at all.

Inclusively, sometimes I’m just too sad to chill on when I’ve predicted upcoming crisis, too busy to try my luck in my seeking for any prevention or solution.

It happened just so often that today I’d a gloomy morning again, even before the shitty work outbroke. This frustration of mine could never be resolved, imagining the CCO loaned the computers to my department for my department to loan to 6SIG, just for them to loan to other unit. The process was so tedious, wasteful of time, manpower and far too crappy for the presence of the “middle-men”.

I spent my whole afternoon till evening checking the thirty-five sets of computer, removing everything from the boxes, checking for physical deflects, cracking the passwords that wouldn’t supposed to be set, logging in to check for software problems, carrying them into the crowded store room, arranging them nicely etc. I was dehydrated by the end of the day after digging for the missing mouses and keyboard, which that guy dropped on their five-tonne.

This was the day which put my back and knees into greater aching, just two days before my volleyball games. I almost couldn’t walk on and since I was preparing to give all in to the games, I couldn’t complain about my pains.

I’d be a happier man soon.

Stepping out one more time

I’m stepping out of my life as the inter-signals volleyball game approaches. I don’t know if it’d do me good or bad, but it seems that I’m heading towards a no-return route.

I met 2WO Soh this morning and he called 007 in front of me to seek permission for Kian Wee (Jianwei) and I to take part in the game on this coming Friday. There wasn’t any problem except for Kian Wee might have exams to settle on that day, which he managed to push all his appointments to other days.

Suddenly, I received a phone call from Shep, who was so in doubt of my physical condition to take part in the game. It wasn’t out of my anticipation that she would enquire me about it, but at least not so soon.

I was caught in the midst of my dazing mood, too shocked to answer her; anyway I doubted she would be able to understand my situation and condition. If only Staff Quek was around I could explain to him or if Chen De was very determined to help me speak up, since he was experiencing injuries too. Anyway, I told her I’d approach the MO for certification that I was fit to play the game, just like how Mani had done; moreover he was a Pes E personnel.

This is the tight problem I’m facing before achieving my dreamed NS life. Since I’m still injured and currently still undergoing physiotherapy, it doesn’t seem logical for me to play the game.

I’m in doubt of my own condition as well, but I strongly believe and confirm that my health would improve if I ever get out of the camp; I’ll be able to recuperate much faster without all the craps, certainly. I’ll get the aching and pains after the game, but they aren’t tortures that I’ve never endured before.

I went to the MO with confidence that he would grant me my wish; he was the one who didn’t want to excuse me from Range, IPPT, Guard duty and whatever more torturing physical activities, thus he had no reason to excuse me from the volleyball game. However, he refused to write anything for me because my Pes status was supposed to be fit for everything, so the rest was up to 007.

This day, I’ve waited for so long, seems too alluring. I’m yelling, hopping and dashing towards it, resembling an innocent child who’s facing his new toy, willingly to give up anything for it.

A large pot of noodle

I’ve such big communication problem with my mum; she can’t understand me and I fail to accept crazy things she does.

I was so lazy and my feet were too painful to walk on anymore and I asked her to cook instant noodle for me. It ended up with a large pot for the small packet of noodle, becoming so tasteless with all the water, and with a leftover egg dipped inside. The spoon dropped flat once I left it there.

I wouldn’t use that large pot unless I had to cook for at least four persons’ share.

We were out the whole day. The dinner was the great seafood – crabs, prawns, frogs’ legs and vegetable. None of the food on the table was appetizing to me and I took so little for that meal. I was so hungry when we reached Singapore.

So, I’ve solution to everything now. I can’t trust anyone that I’ve to do everything by myself, even to cook an edible bowl of instant noodle. And since I’m not into any seafood or great delicious that my life is so pathetic and fated not to enjoy myself, I shall object whenever my family want to go outside to dine. It’ll reduce the suffering caused by my injuries and thus, I’m able to rest better.

Out of love

I rushed to Harbourfront Centre right after visiting the doctor and yet I was still earlier than Anqi. Siew Chin, Jinyang and I went in first while Tze Khit stayed there to wait for her.

There were only three courts left at Sunsetbay since the rest were taken down for the Zouk Out event. We just stayed outside the court to play because I didn’t want to pay when we were going to leave so early.

Sinong joined us uninvited and kept Jinyang tired with his non-stop craps after we stopped. Tze Khit and Anqi arrived at around 1530h, which was three and a half hours after our meeting time.

This day, I fell out of love again!

I kept myself occupied by looking at a girl in lime green tube. She was quite pretty, cute in her small size, though she didn’t have big chests. What I admired her most was her braveness and I believed she must be very easy to get along with.

If only she didn’t hang out with this group of guys, that I didn’t know if any of them was closely related to her, I’d have gone forward to ask her to take a picture together. She was alone most of the time, lying near the water.

She was my girlfriend for the day – I don’t care!

I didn’t fail to keep Jinyang and Siew Chin in peace ever since. They didn’t give me enough encouragement to step forward, moreover, they were the ones pushing me to leave, even before Tze Khit and Anqi returned to take care of their own bags.

Jinyang and I had great fun teasing Siew Chin all the way. Too bad, he alighted at Commonwealth station and I stood alone to battle to embarrass her. The two of us alighted at Chua Chu Kang and took bus 985 to Xinyi’s house.

I was surprised that we were even earlier than Weitat and his food. We started setting up at around eight and then the supposed-to-be user-friendly charcoals couldn’t be lighted up. Two lighters were spoilt and then starters were invested.

I was saved by Xinyi’s mee hoon. The actual barbecue started only around nine but I was already too tired to climb up to the roof top at the fourth storey to join in. I was too tired and my feet were hurting a lot, and I wanted to watch the Condor Hero.

It was such a waste that I couldn’t stay overnight because I had to go to Johor Bahru with my family for my younger brother’s birthday. I couldn’t even stay till very late since I had only ten bucks inside my wallet; but actually, I wouldn’t want to waste the money on midnight cab no matter what.

I hopped on to Mingen’s pickup and he sent us to Chua Chu Kang MRT. It was so cool!

Polyclinic on Saturday

When I had planned to go out for supper with my family, I just got so tired that I dozed off while resting on the mattress. It was just after midnight.

I was so tired but still able to wake up by nine in the morning. At the point of time when I was about to get back to sleep, I remembered I should pay the doctor a visit.

The first thing I did was to check the computer for messages. I realised it was a quiet morning after I feel asleep. I quickly made a cup of instant Milo and then instant noodle. At least this time I wasn’t lazy to cook like usual. Everything was fine but I almost left the cooked noodle cool without pouring in the packet of ingredients.

It was so stupid to visit the doctor on Saturday and not on a weekday. The “market” was spoilt by people who took MC often and anyone who got the MC would be classified as “chao geng”. Even though the meaningless prejudgement wouldn’t hurt me, I didn’t like to be accused and there weren’t enough people in camp in my absence.

I was blessed for my commitment and heaven removed me with a babe. She was sexy in a spaghetti top, seductive with her nice skin and had a figure better than normal girls. What caught my eyes most was her silky hair so soft that I almost wanted to dash forward to touch them.

Anyway, she was with her mum and then after I got my number from the registration counter, they choose the seats right in front, facing me, however, with a glass with designs in between. The part where it was transparent led my sight at her chest. That was unintentional and besides, she wasn’t wearing low cut and I’d rather look at her face.

I had a long wait. The babe came later than me but went into the room earlier. They came out and then went to the special room to make appointment to see specialist (guessed from my rich experience).

When I was asked on the phone why I was there, I replied I was bored and wanted to visit the doctor for a chat.

It was some time later, a nurse called for my name and sent me to another room, which I was glad that was a male doctor (just don’t like the attitudes of some of the female doctors).

It was already afternoon and the doctor seemed to be very rush. I told him about my eyes having itchiness and tiredness often and after checking, he looked into my nose and asked if there was irritation. Then I started to tell him about my flu, which he said it was nose allergic that led to problems with eyes.

He asked if I wanted to try a type of spray for nose, which would somehow help a little in my eyes’ problems but would cost around $16. I told him I had the 11B and was so proud of it. He even asked me if I needed MC and that was quite dumb on a Saturday.

I got to see the babe at the pharmacy. I was trying to give Siew Chin Jinyang’s number and the pharmacist called for me. She gave me the cough syrup and flu tablets, which I didn’t know the doctor would give me since I thought it was just nose irritation. Having doubts that they might have errors, I asked her where the $16 spray was and she thought I was trying to hurry her.